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Ariel Lin

The Count of Monte Cristo by Alexandre Dumas

I have been meaning to finish this book as soon as I read it but instead it took me a few weeks before I could finally finish the book.

This book was actually recommended to us by our English teacher. And so, when I got the chance to buy the book I bought it right away. I thought that it’d be hard to understand since its a classic but it was very much entertaining and exciting.The first few chapters were a little bit boring but when you get into it you’ll really have fun. The story was primarily about Monte Cristo’s vengeance to the people who’ve imprisoned him and who’ve stripped him off of his most valued things like work, friends, fiancee. And also vengeance for his father’s death. The first part is about how he survived life in prison and how he met a wise old priest who became his second father and taught him a lot of things about life. The story tells you a lot of things about not losing hope and how anger and hatred can sustain and make a person desperate to live and make the people who’ve made him suffer pay & repent for all their sins. It also shows the other side of Monte Cristo. That even if his heart is full of revenge in the end he is willing to forgive and love again.

Just venting out some of my frustrations, disappointments, sadness, madness, loneliness and whatever other kinds of feelings you might want to add.I wanna talk about me and my younger brother’s relationship.

Well, I’ve never really broken down because of my brother before but lately I have been crying because of him… I know that I shouldn’t let my brother get in my nerves but he always does and I hate it. Why can’t I just ignore his rantings and murmurs and insults just like how I shut myself down when someone else insults me. Why can’t I do such a simple thing???

I’ve been wondering if my brother is worth every tear I shed whenever he stabs me with insults. Is he worth the emotions that I feel whenever he makes me feel that he’d rather be with someone else than to be with his so-called “ate”. I wonder if my brother loves me as much as he loves our older sister? I wonder if I’m too mean to him that he acts the way he does. Have I really been mean to him? I wonder. These are a few of the many questions I always ask myself every painful day we fight.

My brother and I never let a day pass without insulting or even hurting each other either physically or emotionally. We fight with each other because of shallow things. We fight when I try to tell him to fix this and that… To put his dirty clothes in the laundry basket and he then tells me that he’ll do it later and then forgets about it. My brother has the characteristic/s that I don’t like in boys, being too insensitive. I know as his older sister that I should rise up but often I can’t. God knows I’m trying hard but I guess it’s not enough. I know God is testing me. God wants me to overcome my provocative brother.

I guess another thing that hurts me whenever he insults me is because he is my brother and I love him too much. I hope he sees that, even though I don’t usually let him see that part of me. I hope he’ll someday sense that I just want to discipline him and learn the things I’ve learned when I was his age. But I guess girls mature differently than guys. That’s another thing I still need to understand.

I hope someday I’ll get to understand him too. I hope someday we’ll get to understand each other and never go back to the painful things we’ve done to each other.

I know that that someday will come soon.

I registered to join the WordCamp Philippines on September 4, 2008. I admit that I’ve been trying to blog ever since I was 13 but always stopped updating. So now, I hope I would be able to continue blogging just like my older sister whose been inspiring to write sensible blog entries instead of just writing about my day *which makes it more like a diary than a blog*.

Anyway, back to the topic, this WordCamp Philippines 2008 makes me so excited and I’m totally looking forward to it. It would be my first time attending a party/meeting of such kind and that would be a totally new experience for me. A great thanks to Mindanao Bloggers for initiating this WordCamp!

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